i don't think it is really a matter of trying. i do what is instictive. these instincs have been shaped by my prior experiences. i don't think i could always be on the road. i think part of the deal is residing and living and gaining these experiences. traveling is simply the periodic cycling, the movement that keeps me awake.

they are getting in the way now, these instincs. recently i have been losing all focus. these days i think that i am losing control. but i am not trying. i think back and remember that this is how it is. this is how i live. and i move on.

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